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Time and death and love and fate; what else is
there
that maps us out
with such brutal force and fervent faith?
Is
there a path upon which
there are no such stones? Is there a tree
that
does not bear this fruit?
On some nights we
are alone; utterly, without
reprieve,
even if a dearest one has just bid us adieu.
On some nights we are in grief; utterly, without
reprieve,
even if a dearest one has given us embrace.
On some nights we are dried-up, without reprieve,
even
if a dearest one has left us filled with comfort.
All the songs are
sung; the dances danced, the
vessels
poured-out of all their wine.
c. Jan
1991
Other than its obvious personal tone, this
was an effort - somewhat subconscious - to resist the modern-day
penchant for short, tense lines in favour of a longer metre and
line-length, emulating the French alexandrine
and the dactylic hexameter used by Homer.
Amid the flotsam of
these latter days,
amid the strewn glories of our ancient Empire
that made the blood of Poets
and the deaths of all our Kings -
Did we love less
that we knew Love no more,
or made greater Loss of all our Victory,
for but to reckon with our Deeds?
Waking from Dream within the Flesh
we found a Knowing too strong to face,
too Great to fear. Passion cast our burden
out before the eyes of Fate, Love
tumbled with the mountains of the Night.
Yea, that we might
walk this way no more!
That all our Trying's but a foil,
to starve the World with Surfeit
and bitter Loneliness. The Gods of Anger
and of Love, and of the madness that is
Song,
stride forth into the rosy-fingered Dusk.
The horses of the Sea mount and rear, in foamy
mane,
ablaze with Virtue and with Might,
the tune of Heaven chording through the Sky:
Light, and Life, and Love the lash
to idle hearts aggrievened by the Weight of
History.
Touch me now, and
bring here your side to me:
cleave me to the Knowledge of your Form.
Grasp me in the sweetness of thy sylvan strength -
Show mine eyes the Thunder; thy Skin, the Armour
of my soul.
(1991 or 1992)
Do you see my mind?
Can you know my thoughts?
Would you tell me that all I have learned is
naught
and I am bitter without cause, that all is
sunlight
and rejoicing and fat life - like cattle chewing
grass
contentedly in a slaughterhouse's fields? That
sorrow
only falls on those who earn and deserve its pain,
that blithe ignorance is the surest cure for
destiny
and loud and false vulgarity the best antidote
for knowledge?
How many years of
life are lived
before purpose flowers and fruits,
the heavy load of duty finding seed?
I walked in mountain
dales where greed has
scarred the land;
I roamed the streets of cities seeking reason and
a friend;
I rode the great highways to fill out the
boundaries of my span;
I swam the coldest rivers, burned a fire to name
the end.
.....there is so
much noise - disquiet is a
bane
for thoughtful speech.......
(August 1995)
They are unmade -
those ancient
hills are crumbled by the will of Man.
Maps enchart their mystery, their
fierce blood tapped to feed
our ravened hordes;
no more mountains twist
into a far never, where
none may longer go.
their gates are closed
by the taking of their names.
Dreams of plateau
starlight, canyons
in the hidden moonshadow; even winds
that sweep the mountain lakes,
pines roaring at the end of day.
Do you love me
still, my long-lost one?
Do you want me in the winter night,
wake dreaming of my kiss on summer morns?
Would you be swallowed again into my love?
Mountains rear above
the sheltered sea
winding deep into the monstrous land
hand breaks on rock, storm freezes on crag
Dry and drier and the lands beyond.
Do you feel my
remembrances?
Do you wonder at our stranged ways
and hope to find my face again
upon where your shoulder meets its nape,
your leg thy loin?
The world around is
is made end,
The forest falls to feed time's fire.
The sky opens to yet sharper stars -
yet no world outlasts even a long-lost love.
How safe I have been
on this pale of men: When
I came hence I fell fourty leagues and ten souls.
But give me now a new mystery: history
is moot: my life is bored dull and waste.
I would rather be
made than not: hot
are the flames of the puritan's hell.
I venture into the folds of change: strange
I would more risk that than a cage.
(1985)
I never asked to be
born into this age
or saddled with this tongue;
I never asked for an avenger's rage,
or lust, the glory of the urgent
young;
I never made cunning song or rhyme
that cast in other than mortal time;
I never made my flesh's weight
or the burden of man's mystery;
I never chose a fatal fate
or the terror of a history:
I have worn a hundred names,
have lived too many foreign fames -
This, this, is just a passing face,
a madness to drive the mortal day,
a rift-closed time, a gap-filled space,
a rotten carcase to be thrown away -
I'd fain be unharnessed of this dreadful task,
riding whipped by a muse without
being asked;
but I shudder to see a cancer spread,
my form is pounded by the angered
dead
who ride my roads on high wingéd horse
- would I beg this golden
bridle, these spurs,
these furies' force?? *
II
And Pegasus, fair
Pegasus, is dead!
That shining mane, flashing wings,
and silver-bright head
struck asunder and smashed by great bolts of light
hurled down, hurled down, by
heaven's murderous might!
Pegasus, Pegasus, my proud-pinioned steed -
Did I waste the last of your
fabulous breed?
(February 1982)
But when that
glory's gilt was doffed
the days still burned on bright;
the rocks still laughed, the stones still scoffed:
the desert sat hot with light.
Much was done, and
much was said
down all the roads of History
Of plague, of war, of the need for bread -
the Reason still was Mystery.
Of pestilence I dare
not speak:
my own blood is of that scourge
whose legacy is cursed upon the weak
and whom the earth to fire shall
forge.
(c. spring 1984) The last
lines here, as in the closing of Bellereophon's Song and certain other
works, I have never been happy with an may never find the
energy/inspiration to find. They are, to me, cloaked in mystery.
But of my own
life, my intimate self -
the one that is neither mage, bard, god, giant,
nor
elf, *
the one that was born and walks in earth's flesh -
what is its fate's web, its destiny's
mesh?
For though it yet lives, to age, and to death,
it still wonders what urge drives the will to
achieve,
what strings bind its heart and shatter calm
breath,
wonders why the world was made to deceive.
Dizzy with dreams,
drunk with desire,
made with fatigue, burned out by fire.
Rage falling stupid, tears blurring eyes -
Some days are different: deep are the skies,
silent are stones, strong are waves on the beach
but these hours, my own, are beyond my mind's
speech.
Believe in a faith,
stir up the young,
Raise my hand, open, and raise up my tongue?
I'm really beginning to feel it's absurd
to try and forge worlds with the weaving of words.
Down from my heights on rhyme's horse have I
ridden
away from the peace that passes, private,
unwritten.
Farewell,
once-friend, for What's been said
here
can never be said full when you are too near;
a special moment, a warm smile, a feverous touch -
these are the things that I can't let mean much
for they're nothing to the Art by which I to live;
they're nothing of the love that I tried to
give.
(Spring
1982)
*
- the reference here is not mythological, but more along the lines of
the six states of being of Tibetan philosophy - the god state, the
titan/asura state, the superhuman state. the human state, the hell
state, the preta loka/hungry ghost state; although not in that order,
or with the meanings of the Tibetan paradigm intended.
For what else could Death be
than the completion of Life itself? -
Knowledge of the One:
the release from Experience into Knowing?
Unbound, unbeing,
unmade;
Eternity become visible
all Sorrow merged to Joy
all Days into Endless Light
Who can quail at this
but those who live Untruth?
Who can fear the Light
that illuminates all Unknown?
Faliro/Mykonos
July 7/8/00
Delos waits, serene
and bright
an island blessed by Light
a vessel made to hold the Day
and wrought of Song and Prophecy
where Shadow cannot
rule
and Suffering's forbade:
a blue-girt, sunlit Jewel
of love and splendour made
(Mykonos July 8/00)
Vermilion.
(1984)
(Easter 1985) *" The
Cayoosh" - a 'small' mountain range running from Pemberton-Mt Currie BC
northwest towards Lillooet, and also the name of the stream defining
the SE side of that range and also the pre-colonial name for the
village of Lillooet; meaning "Indian pony" or "mountain pony".
The moment described in this poem was written while approaching the
Pemberton area from Whistler after departing that resort town in the
course of a difficult personal matter; the Cayoosh become visible in
the area of Rutherford Creek and while climbing a short hill between
that area and Pemberton, and loomed over the frosty morning bedecked
with fresh ice and snow, calling me home to the country beyond....it
was Easter weekend, hence the allusion to the Crucifixion and, not
incidentally, my own frame of mine.
********
Five years gone: the
rains dissolve
all traces of the winter's turn.
We leave our homes returned to Truth:
Our shelter broken, but our dreams set free.
(Spring
1990) * written in some kind of resolution to the emotional
trauma of the prevoius lines.
We spoke of shadows,
talked of flesh,
drank apart the days
and worked the Yukon night
to feed our hungry souls with cash.
I left before the
winter fell;
you stayed to feel the first cruel snow,
to bid Dawson a final farewell
before the Arctic's deadly darkling sleep
could seize your heart
and command you stay.
The angry decade
unfolds upon us.
Fists, knives, clubs, and guns; cold malice
vented on the burdens of the world -
the truths of hate and war and lust,
the lost glories of long-plundered gold.
The Yukon locked by
freeze-up,
the Klondike's dales deep in new-blown snow.
Two thousand miles of wilderness
from the horrors of the raging world.
For you
the stormwind at a cold canyon's gate
recalled to me the grey stone songs you sang
that came cold, and colder out the moutainous rift
that cuts between the desert and the sea
For you
I ran behind the midnight train
fleeing back to the arc-lit streets of town
from the darkness of your valley's air
that hindered me from rest
at being home.
I dream awake in
shadow
of the flower of those gold-buttressed peaks,
the rosy snows of their summer dusk.
For you, I hark to their passing's lonely wail.
(1984)
The bards of Babylon, the harps of Ur,
Great-galleried Nineveh's lore -
Ten thousand years of human stir
lit many lights, extinguished more.
The fires that burned on Uruk's heights
were like the glory of its kingly throne:
The beast that burned the mountain nights
consumed the dark where Earth had dwelt alone.
Names and hearts, unwrit, uncarved,
are the grains on Fortune's grinding-wheel -
This grist-mill's flour baked a bread that
starved,
yet made longing taste like sweet, rich meal.
Vanished is the green and fertile earth,
Vanished are Sumer's youthful lords,
Dwindled is the wide world's girth,
Dwindled are the nomad hordes.
(c.
March 1980)
(late 1982)
In worldbane wood, a
small plant grew
on oak, ash, thorn, and yew
In worldbane wood, a small plant grows
on crumbled walls, grows
mistletoe.
The song of hearts
sad-passioned
quickens pale
and grey veils flow silk on grass
The fevered sweat of fairy frost
glazes elven eyes, greyed and lost
Flute and drum, and
gold-throated harp
birded hands held flutter hope faraway
- and there is a star-vaulted vein in towering
sky:
The deep, out there, the darkness on high
On the darklit beach
of sparkling sand
are strewn starsongs old and open
The oceans of time, the deeps of space
the waves of darkness lap with elven grace
Shadows tile and
bend in the ending wind
The light-eyed dancers in high-clung wood
traipse glowing trails in deepdewed grass
to the tune of the elfsong,
sung with hearts
of glass.
Flute and
drum, goldthroated harp -
sing the song of the greater dark!
Bang loud drum, baned, and blow
fairy horns!
Nine worlds collide, and the
elves dance their scorn.
It has
begun: bring wine and
feast
for the elves turn their eyes away
from the greater doom to a
tranquil end
in a sombre wood, and a green
grass bed.
The goldmaned horse,
with silver shanks
cavorts to thrill above the precipice
Heed not the steps, prance out the dance -
run ouu the dege and coltish cold frisk
From shining mane
and flaxfrosted tail
spray morning and night, glistening in trail
The greymaned horse,
with sable flanks
the goldmaned horse, with silver shanks
Unridden and loose,
fair heads high-tossed
they ride in twilight, above the abyss of frost
In a highwooded cliff between shadow and shade
wend the heedless tracks, by so many long ages
made
that yet feel the lighthammered hooves of the
horses
running wild at the edge of the world
and around, spiralled in glee,
the frames of finality's forces
The greymaned horse,
with sable flanks
the goldmaned horse, with silver shanks
Ride long this eve,
on worldsend edge
for sweet fair dawns are long-off yet
The wind blows breath
from the worlds beyond Death's
and two horses ride hard
into the night, dark-starred
Ride long this even, on worldsend edge
for sweet, fair dawns, are long, long-off yet
The greymaned horse,
with sable flanks
The goldmaned horse, with silver shanks
The rocks are
chanting, the mountains dance
the wind whirls black and bright
on cool lost summer night
The loom of fate looms clouded crags
Far fire, burn bale and bold
Destiny forge, new hammers mold
to blast and bind the present past:
The cycle throes, at last, at last . . . . .
The rocks are
chanting, the mountains dance
the wind whirls black and bright
on cool lost summer night
Worldgate wide, above worldsend gap,
rainbow ruins from olden world -
flex chaos cave and fluxing curl
crave to crush the present past:
The cycle throes, at last, at last . . . . .
The rocks are
chanting, the mountains dance
the wind whirls black and bright
on cool, bleak, last, lost summer nights . . . . .
Infinity,
infinity,the end begins
the mountain child dances ending rims
Cauldron boil and bubble black
Nothing's fold, zeroed back to back
Drum, drum, dooming
dance
Ships in nightsea steer entranced
to tryst at, to, with, the blue orbed curse
Water parts, all things immerse
Mattermount and
timespace bend
Spear hard the heart, the ready's end
Sunset burn, and dark fires send
the testing flags, the ways to wend
Grey cold sun, grow
ashen pale
fall down in sunset old, and fail
Bridge's horn, the hosts to hail
The rainbow cracks, darkness bloats, prevails,
Each night fall
deeps the roof of snow
that lays onto the high blue tiles
and mimes itself, to mock, beguiled
the witching white of face
that frost on mirror can only trace.
Love is a ram of
gold . . .
(Late Winter, 1979)
